I think there are two ways in which I tend to look at life. There are days when I think I live life to its finest details, tracking my steps to every possible extent, constructing every view of mine carefully, planning every move of mine, and reasoning every thought that comes to my mind. This involves a lot of retrospection, I mean one does think a lot of what he/she did as to what he/she ought to have done, days when I do not want to dismiss anything lightly, trying to construction something out of every possible thought, trying to see how that can help others and myself.
I guess it’s a curve, rather a circle, with passing days the involvement in my own life grows gradually, and then reaches a peak, and I realize that this is it, I got to break free, I got take things lightly, forget the finer aspects, look at life as set of passing days, enjoy the way as it comes, feel the happiness in an unplanned manner, and if it turns out to be sad then just go through the motions of pain. Let the life plan it for you, rather then you planning the life.
I think there is something in my mind which kind of tags continuum as boredom, so just like the unplanned life which kind of forced its way into my routine life, a want of a more planned one would find its way back in. So slowly I begin to plan a risk free, “non sad” days, even if it means that it’s not happy.
It’s like a cycle that always continues.
September 27th, 2008 at 11:08 pm
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September 28th, 2008 at 2:50 pm
Awww Anam its true for most of us, we suddenly shake ourselves out of a limbo and decide no this is not what we want, we get down to resolutions and redefining what we calling planning our life, then we get get bored of the organised discipline of routine and get back to the unplanned ,live it as it comes phase. I guess thats what we can call disorganised , indisciplined life because when we plan, things dont go that way always.So its life way of killing boredom by making us look at different ways of living, giving us different outlooks and making us think differently.Each phase to be lived a different way.I dont know if I am making sense but to me its just what makes every moment diffrent, challenging and interesting because of how we look at life at that particular moment, be it happy, sad or full of pain
September 28th, 2008 at 8:54 pm
Interesting! Infact, I’ve always believed life goes on like an AC cycle (a sinusoidal), you reach a high point and gradually start going back. Then you hit that bottom again and rise slowly to go towards the apex. And it goes on!
Nice blog btw
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