Today Anam n Me went down memory lane. As some of the oldest members on Crazefm we have built so many happy memories on the site and have formed such beautiful moments stored and captured in our album called life. How small things were what made us laugh so much, memories of lil cribs, lil instances that we made big of, made fun of and more. I remember a time when I joined Crazefm, I was going through rough weather and so were a few others I met there. Here we made a lil world for ourselves. Laughter over small nicknames etc, I think like me many saw this community as a place which was so so special.
I remember the first time I ventured into the SB drawn by a discussion on life and positive thinking I said Hi I like what you guys are saying and then things just went forward so fast, I met tonnes of lovely people who I never realised would be such a huge huge part of my life. I said goodbye to a few , but more than that I found so many who made my heart their home. They became an intrinsic part of my everyday life like my family, each one special in their own way.I dont know how but I was completely drawn to this new home, a wonderful world of our own. The love, good feeling, faith and bond holding us together through anything each one of us went through.
I remember the way I was pushed on to going on air, more like emotionally blackmailed on a brothers birthday to go and wish him. I did with my knees knocking and to top it I was asked to sing. the Rj who I didnt know all that well then ,made me feel so at ease that soon , a few years down the line I was on air every show airing my views, singing, wishing someone or just fooling around. From nervous chattering teeth, knockin knees to quiet confidence, knowing what to say when, covering goof ups , all this happened in a span of months.
From being a spectator watching the talk in the chat I dont know how and when I began taking more of an interest in the running and admin part of this community and soon enough from being a mute spectator i started getting involved in the forums etc etc …. Then on began such a beautiful journey in my life , I met so many interesting people , I made wonderful friends who I know I will carry with me in my heart to my grave no matter what tomorrow brings. What brought us together was a love for music but what held us together was mutual respect, moral support and love we had for each other.
Anam and I laughed about the funny times we had as part of the team, the names we came up with for each one, all sweet and sugary and some not so nice psuedonyms for the ones who were a bit of a nuisance.The reactions of some of them when we began calling them names brought smiles on our faces. We laughed about ‘garam masala’ alerts we had when someone was sighted and the funny meetings we had as a team. We have laughed our way through the kids names we thought of for every couple there…santa-banta, santi-banti, chintu mintu. The plans we made for some of their weddings, the laughter we had when we would decide to pull one particular persons leg that day…We have cribbed about certain wierdos we have come acrosss, some who were downright crass. We I guess made laughter our second nature, every lil thing would be enjoyed. We have celebrated couples who found each other here, celebrated successes together and celebrated each other’s happy moments too.
We cried about the tough times we went through, some of us more then the others. Some of them battling stuff that a few of us just dreamt of. Memory losses, health problems, near death instances, we always held hands together and faced it. We have prayed together, stayed nights up to be each others support and cried with each other trying to deal with each others issues.We have seen miracles born out of the strong bond our relationships had. These are thoughts and memories I can never ever get out of my mind ever unless something drastic happens.
As we spoke about all this both of us laughed at some instances, we cried over a few more. Would those days be back again? The only thing that pulled all of us through then was our bond, our love and the relationship we had for each other. We have been through so much and seen so much together that I always felt there was something special between each one of us. With tears rolling down my cheeks , I remember every mountain that I climbed soon became a hill just because of the love and support I got from my friends and family at craze.
I guess I just wait for all that to come back. I pray and ask God to get everyone back to normal, to make them healthy, make them happy and to just give us those happy days back again.I ask him to rebuild those relationships, rebond us to make those relationships we have stronger and to help us hold on to each other no matter what wave threatens to wash us away. I wish…..
