I wish I was on a beach right now. the sound of the sea, the waves crashing on always seems to make me feel a part of the nature on the whole. Why have I woken up to a day of feeling all alone? I feel I have absolutely no one to relate to. I feel I have lost all my bearings, my friends. I look around and see everyone having their own clicks and here I am standing all alone , they welcome me but yet I feel am all lost… hmmm… horrible , this feeling of emptiness. I dont know why this feeling all of a sudden has crept up on me. Maybe I miss the one I considered my best friend 
I cant seem to enjoy anything I am doing… I work mechanically , cook, take care of my family and even found time for shopping, but my mind seems so far, so alone. No joy in anything. Each morning I wake up seeking the rays of sunshine but by evening am back to feeling all alone…
I want to walk along the waves, with my feet sinking into the sand . The waves wetting my feet. I love doing this specially at night . Alone… I dont know if from being a peoples person I am turning into a loner . I seem to contantly think a lot, shrink into myself and seem not to find any peace if people are around me. The music that once seemed everything my life, so soothing , so energising now feels more like seamless noise that drives my mind around and around in circles. Each day my heart shrinking more… and though my loved ones reach out to me , I seem to shrink away from them…am I scared of caring too much? Is it me changing or is it I cant accept the changes around me?
Would solitude give me peace , would it hold me in its arms?
May 31st, 2009 at 8:07 am
No the only one’s which can hold you arms is friends… and even the readers who like your writings
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actually solitude never helps and its my experience coz i did place my self in a solitude and not even a short one i was in a solitude for like 5 months completely no contact with anyone just me and my words that was the time when i discovered that i can write and was the same time i started venting out through my words !!
May 31st, 2009 at 11:52 am
@Ubaid:
Hmmm so it has its advantages na , you discovered something new about yourself , Well its hard on me to do it as I have too many obligations to cover for me to be completely alone but Hmmm in my mind I do feel completely Isolated
May 31st, 2009 at 11:03 pm
thats sort of bad yaar… you would have someone with you ??
koi toh ho gaa naah
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May 31st, 2009 at 11:29 pm
@Ubaid: will be okie na Ubaid