I don’t know how most of my thoughts replay the when am traveling 
.A weekend trip and on the road, the places flying past, kept my mind working. What do I deserve in my life??? I often write down my mind here in order to set my thoughts on things and I do so again when am a little introspective
Do I deserve to relive my hurts in order to keep them alive in my mind….??? Definitely not. I should forgive and let go of my hurts and forgive those who caused it because holding on to pain could be in a way a self defeating exercise. If holding on to the hurt is just a way of hoping that the person who caused it would see the damage they have done …..forget it, it wont happen for if it had to ,they would not have hurt you in the first place and the hurt you cling to can just turn into anger and you may feel victimized and the anger internalized…If you expect someone to come and repair things you are courting disappointments. So I deserve to let go of hurts in order to forgive and court peace.
Do I deserve to be respected…to be treated well ….to get the best from life?? Of course I do. No one deserves to be treated badly…so I do expect to be treated well…and with respect .I realized one thing with this, I deserve what I accept. So if some one does say or do something I do not like, its up to me to tell them what I feel or think or do about it. I deserve what I tolerate.I may accept something less because I don’t believe I deserve more or maybe because I care too much about that other person to create a scene for them. But if I respect, treat others well and go out of my way for them…. I deserve to be respected , loved and treated well.
Do I deserve to give the best and receive the best? I guess this says it more … when I give the best …the best of myself, the best of my ability, the best of every attribute i call my strengths…then its only but natural I receive the best from the world.Since I believe I am good to people I feel I deserve good from people too.So I deserve…To give and receive the best there is.
I have fallen down so many times in my life and have picked myself up n again to walk on. I am alive, my body in good working condition and I am working on getting my mind back on to it. I have lost yes, but there were many wins too… I have been beaten but I never lost hope… I remember and maybe am remembered too.. I love and hmm maybe am loved too… I have been honest and good as best as I can…I have made mistakes but have apologized and asked for forgiveness… I have been hurt but have forgiven completely…no bitterness or anger …I have let go…and am content in the peace it gives me, I have given a lot….and given it completely from my heart. I have very few regrets because I have given my best, tried hard every time and have made an attempt to set right the wrongs I have done and not repeat them.
So do I deserve to be happy???? Of course I do. Because all of the above tells me I am alive and I should celebrate it .:)
Don’t we all deserve all of this and more?
