Searching for some spiritual relationships she lost her way … all seemed so shallow ….nothing looked deep, all a front, a pretense to make everything look fine and dandy.But deep down she knew she was fishing in shallow waters yet drowning ,tangled up in the quagmire of her thoughts… A cobweb of mixed up feelings , a tangle of pain and laughter , confusion and realization, she was getting all tied up in the mess that her mind and emotions created.
Tangled …thats what she felt she was in this world. A mangled mess of human bonds, emotional bonds, relationships, thoughts and feelings. Gasping and holding on to straws her scrambled brain searched for some deeper meaning to life… a search for a light to brighten the darkened corner of her world ….but alas , her search always resulted in her stumbling and falling in the dark again.
What is that elusive thing that escapes her every time?. Is it clarity in thought? Is it peace of mind ? Is it oneness with God? Is it love? Is it relating to someone? Is it understanding?? Is it a search for truth?? Is it answers for questions in her mind? There she went, her mind again in a tangle of questions …. n then some more questions .
“Help…help me !! some one pull me out of this whirlpool, out of this black hole am being sucked into, help me untie myself from the tangle of my thoughts’”she cried but she seemed alone all by herself… then a voice said…” You die alone , so learn to live alone. The purpose of your life is to discover your gift, develop it as the work of your life and then give it away .That should tell you the meaning of life.”Looking around , she saw footprints that were invisible , she realized that only HE walks with her . As a warmth engulfed her and took her hands ,she knew she could move forward in the belief that God would lead her the right way.
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” Reinhold Niebuhr
December 30th, 2009 at 4:20 am
the inner thoughts well penned down sis
speaks volumes of emotions
god bless u
December 30th, 2009 at 4:43 am
Thank u sis n bless u!!
December 30th, 2009 at 6:39 am
December 30th, 2009 at 6:43 am
Thanx AD just grappling with the mess my mind is right now just seem to swing from positive to negative in a heartbeat
December 30th, 2009 at 8:50 pm
Nice.
December 30th, 2009 at 10:13 pm
Thank You Fahad
Happy new year 
December 31st, 2009 at 7:33 am
i loved the post
December 31st, 2009 at 1:54 pm
Thanks Ubee
Wish you a great year ahead dude. Keep smilin
December 31st, 2009 at 1:58 pm
Thoughts are always beautiful then b it the darker side of it or the brighter side. Its the inner most feeling one has to express and its done beautifully. Though I would want you to feel at peace this coming year and I pray no negative vibe gets across you and even if does then I know it in my heart that God will take good care of you.
Love you Di. 
We have learnt a lot this past year and we have stayed positive no matter what. This coming year we bring changes in ourselves and surrender few things to God so that he does the best and what do we do?? Keep smiling
December 31st, 2009 at 2:07 pm
Thanku my Shona Love u tonnes. You, chockie n maddio r rays of sunshine n I never fail to smile when I think of you and am with you all. Huggs I wish you a lovely 2010 too bachha. Keep smiling too.
January 1st, 2010 at 3:52 pm
Wish u and ur family a hale and healthy new year. Keep writing. Got addicted to checking ur blog for new post before starting my work.
January 1st, 2010 at 6:58 pm
Hey Deepa
wishing you and your family a great 2010 . God bless n keep your family safe, healthy n happy.
Am glad my writing interests you and your comments always encourage me to try n better my work. Thanks for the support and kind words. Keep visiting n commenting as well.