“Life is not lost by dying; life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all the thousand small uncaring ways….”
Yet another year gone by and hmm maybe I have lost out on a lot of time , precious time, lost in the time spent in depleting my life’s energies with my moping , with my tears n pain .The new year is here and as always I hear so many resolutions, decisions made for the new year. I wonder why each day cannot be a new one 
and more than a resolution I made a decision. A decision made 2 days into the new year and one made as I read through an article on emotional makeover .
Emotions generally take each one on a roller coaster ride, sometimes they go easy on you and sometimes make life so, so difficult. Striking a good balance between the ups and downs seems to be of utmost importance to me right now. To move away from the emotional patterns of last year and to build a more happier me. That is not to say I wont be sad ever. That would be seeking the impossible as am human and as aforementioned, one does have cycles of ups n downs.But I am determined this year to make myself emotionally strong enough to change my life by changing my emotions.
That would probably involve a few steps . First of all to learn to rearrange the negative energy from the negative emotions and understand my emotions.To manifest these negative emotions positively .Instead of allowing them to work against me to make them work for me .As emotions create an imbalance in our mind , to free myself from these disturbances in order to experience a greater happiness.
To learn to express the emotions instead of holding them within. When one keeps the hurt inside ,that is the surest way to be unhappy. Tell those who hurt you that you hurt and why you hurt. Other wise the hurt manifests itself in you as anger that can be directed against yourself with time.So to express your feelings even though it means putting yourself and your relationships at risk.But its worth it as it is the right thing to do. Its the only way to build any relationship instead of allowing the negative emotions to fester within and decay the relationship.
Be open and taste freedom. This involves a lot of self acceptance and a willingness to grow .One embraces positive emotions readily when open. This makes it easier to change shame into will power, guilt into healing past actions, anger into determination ,sorrow into compassion,jealousy into self love. When you hide feelings or emotions within they hold you a prisoner and take over your life.Instead of that be open and that redeems you and makes you free.
Negative emotions are energy depleting and a sure way to ruin yourself . I have realized this and am looking forward to an emotional makeover. When I need a cleansing of my emotional baggage I guess there is always room for venting here in my blog So here’s to an emotional high in 2010.
Are you going choose a emotional makeover or planning to wallow in a negative emotion hangover? Do share.
January 8th, 2010 at 6:38 pm
This was a bit of deja vu for me as I read your blog because I had somewhat of a similar conversation with Hamza last night. It gave me a lot of think about because I was telling him about how the past year has been an emotional roller coaster. He told me one thing to do and that is learning to ignore. He made it simple. The more you think about it, the more you cry over it, the worst it will get. To move on, one needs to constantly remind themselves to ignore. It's not worth it. If you don't move on, you're going to ruin not only your own mental state but also those around you. ____You are amazingly positive person, I've known you to get through some of the most toughest times and I know you can do it as long as you put your heart, mind and soul towards it. ____I myself am working very hard towards getting over the events of last year but I know that as soon as I let myself get little bit emotional, it all goes down the drain. No one can help me till I help myself.
____I love you loads and I have full faith that you will be able to get over this emotional turmoil and be back to the person that you are. Tight hugs.
January 8th, 2010 at 8:19 pm
Luv u anam hugggs n thanks for being with me .U n shona , maddy r my strengths n yes I know I will b ok.