Its funny how we never realize the value of certain things till you lose it altogether. Like a smile or a greeting from a loved one…it instantly cheers you up and makes your whole world light up. You see positivity everywhere but don’t really realise how much it means to you till one day they stop greeting or smiling at you.
I always had music running in the background whenever I did anything, be it house work, be it paperwork or writing. Music made such a part of my life till one day I consciously shut it out of my life alltogether … Finding the silence comforting I reveled in it , till one day I felt stifled by the silence n went back to listening to songs.. I realized what I missed then 
Aimlessly my mind wandering the past year, I realized a few things about myself and maybe about people at large. In a larger picture where nothing seemed to be going right, I seemed to find solace in the little things that came my way. Even though deep within me, I was fighting my demons , I learn to take the moment for what it was. If at that point my kids made me laugh , I was really really happy n laughed with them. If a friend came n spent time with me , I would enjoy every moment that I had with them. The same way when evening came or early mornings when sadness n tears took over I just gave in to them completely. I let each moment take me wherever it wanted to…no decisions , no plans nothing. Just a blank mind and those few moments .
That is when I realised that for me a lot of little joys made up the bigger picture. A warm n smiling hello , a hug, a smile or just an occasional hope you are doing Good I guess till recently I never realised how important these were to me , or how much of a difference it made to my daily life …
I still go on…with that search…that wait…with that hope that some day maybe …those little things that gave me joy would be a part of my life again The silence in my heart says it will be mine Maybe Someday.
